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[Jan. 21st, 2009|12:50 pm] |
sorry kid
I saw your comment a couple days ago, just been real busy.
Welllll you wanted a update kid, here goes:
-I quit my job, I now make money by buying cheap volkswagens and pulling almost every part off them to sell on the internet and by going to the local junkyards and pulling parts for a couple dollars and selling them anywhere from 40-200$. For now, its going pretty good, but Im sure I will run out of cars to break down, oh well. Im going to try and get a job at one of the dealerships, shouldnt be too hard, Ive got some good connections at both of them. Oh yeah, and of course Ive still been selling pot.
-I was finally able to file for financial aid. Super super stoked on that, tho I have to wait til the summer semester, fuck it. Which reminds me, I have to go back and finish the taking the placement test for the second time. Which Im pretty sure youre going to have to do too... whenever you decide to whoa-man up.
-I believe I told you last time we talked (you know when you drove by my house and texted me? which by the way, Im sure were stalking me just hoping youd drive by and catch a glimpse of me :D its alright kid, you dont have put yourself through such troubles just to see me, just give me a call. <3)
hahaha (I couldnt resist)
anyway Im pretty sure I told you that I gave up on building the coupe and started selling most of my VW parts, that is what started the whole buying/selling crap, just saw a opportunity to make more money in half the time. Its going to suck getting a real job again, oh well thats life.
-Pretty much, I hate living at home. I need to get out soon. Real soon. Right now the profits of my little parts venture is all going to buy one solid nice car, another coupe actually, then all of my money is going to erasing my debt completely, and moving then fuck out of chesapeake. Hopefully a decent rental house with a garage. It gets cold out, like right now, Im about to go out in this 32 degree weather and pull some parts. fun.
So in a nutshell thats a little update on my life... nothing too exciting. Sucking at life as usual.
You?
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[Dec. 18th, 2008|05:31 pm] |
You know, you were the only person I looked forward to hearing "happy birthday" from... dont know why.
On a completely different note, I removed you from my friends on myspace. Not for any negative reason at all, you didnt do anything, Im just tired of seeing your updates/reading your bulletins, as much as I try not to pay attention to them. Its a "out of sight, out of mind" type of thing. Simply put, Im trying to not think about you as much as I do. Thats all. I just wanted you to know that Im not trying to be a dick or anything.
As well, Im prolly going to chill out on posting in here... I might make another one and just keep it to myself. That has yet to be decided.
Merry Christmas and a happy new year kid! I hope they are quite enjoyable for you.
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| Like Yesterday - Misery Signals |
[Dec. 8th, 2008|10:20 pm] |
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I'd give my life for this to change
There's no excuse for what I've done
Now I must prove that I truly love
After all we said, how Could I lie
Disappointed myself
Disappointed you, for what
Ask for forgiveness
I'm so disappointed in myself,
and so sorry for what I've done
all of that time I was so weak
blinded by lust I could not think
If you give me one more chance
I promise I will not fail you
I will stay never betray
I am sorry regretting what I have done
I need to fix this, make you see
You need to know, that was not me
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This song has been a favorite of mine for awhile now. Ive never looked up the lyrics before til today, however, they could not be more perfect. Pretty weird. Almost every word of this is exactly how I feel/look at our situation... Wild.
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[Dec. 4th, 2008|12:17 am] |
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You can't resist her
She's in your bones
She is your marrow
And your ride home
You can't avoid her
She's in the air
In between molecules
Of oxygen and carbon dioxide
Only in dreams
We see what it means
Reach out our hands
Hold on to hers
But when we wake
It's all been erased
And so it seems
Only in dreams
You walk up to her
Ask her to dance
She says "hey baby
I just might take the chance"
You say "It's a good thing
That you float in the air
That way there's no way
I will crush your pretty toenails into a thousand pieces."
Only in dreams
I dont know... I like the song, and its somewhat fitting I guess!?!?
whateverrrr
CHEER UP KID! Why? Because I said so...
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[Dec. 1st, 2008|03:12 pm] |
whatever happens, happens.
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I turn 24 in 16 days. Damn. Gettin to be old man status.
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[Nov. 11th, 2008|08:19 am] |
hahaha
there is noway I stand a chance with you. There is noway Im even on your radar.
but its whatever.
whatever happens, happens.
;D
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[Nov. 5th, 2008|11:25 pm] |
so Ive been thinkin pretty much all day...
and I want a second chance. Last time I was just dumb, tho I dont think we both knew how to act correctly, I know for damn sure I didnt. I made PLENTY of mistakes, and I definitely tried wayyy too hard, and I expected things way too soon. I want a second chance, a "whatever happens happens" to the extreme. Now that I know how to act appropriately I know it would go much better, I mean I definitely now know how to NOT act like a giant bag of douche, and I want to show you that. I want to take the all the time needed to get to know you all over again and find out the little things that make you more than awesome that I dont even know about or maybe just forgotten. When it comes time for you to move, I wouldnt stand in your way. I wont beg you stay in this shithole, as much as Id regret you being gone - Id want you to be happy.
I dont miss being in love, I miss being in love with you, the way it felt to be around you, holding you in my arms is the best feeling in the world. point blank. I have never felt for you like I have ANYTHING ELSE - and believe me kid I fucking LOVE volkswagens - but they dont even come close to you (hahaha, but Im serious). I want to feel that again, its been so long but I remember it so well. Obviously, Im not asking for you to be my girl tomorrow, Im not really sure what Im asking for? I just know Im not asking for anything serious, later if we both feel like thats what we want, then great!, if not - well then thats that. I just want to hangout with you and see what happens, take it as slow and as casual as possible. And I mean that, as slow and casual as possible.
Idk, maybe I dont even have to ask for any of this?
Maybe you arent even trying to deal with any of this? Which is more than fine -
but Im wondering... will you give me this oppourtunity?
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[Nov. 5th, 2008|03:02 pm] |
BUT - I do highly recommend you dont go find some random guy and try all this out.. (atleast not soon anyway)
hahah.( I know you wouldnt )
who knows, maybe I am serious...
Im not too sure about a lot of things lately. just one of those phases I guess...
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[Oct. 24th, 2008|09:13 am] |
well, there is lots more things I want to say. maybe another time.
Im kinda bummed you didnt really have anything to say though, or that I just didnt hear them. This is kinda a big deal for me. Since I havent felt like this in forever. Idk
I still love you, and I always will... |
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[Oct. 22nd, 2008|12:24 am] |
I AINT NO GOD DAMNED SON OF A BITCH YOU BETTER THINK ABOUT IT, BABY!
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[Oct. 19th, 2008|03:37 pm] |
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Im not even mad we didnt hang out.
I didnt even really think it was going to go down, so I didnt let myself get my hopes too high. Still sucks that it didnt happen, and I hope you end up feeling better.
Im mad you gave me excuses, that at the time sounded really outlandish... youre tired? take a nap... youre sore? what the fuck from? you have hives all over? Now that sounds like some BS she would have given me...
Im sorry but that is just what was going through my head at the time.
I would have been content (though bummed) with a "I just dont feel like hanging out"
but I do know one thing, Im honestly not going to be the one to keep trying to hangout in this whateverthefuckyouwanttocallit-ship. Ive tried and tried and tried, no success for whatever reasons. Im tired of sounding like a broken-record, tired of being the one who tries to make things happen. If you want to hangout, then YOU can hit me up and express interest. If you dont want to hangout, then we wont.
The way I see it, two things can happen here, we get really close or we drift far apart. Whatever happens, happens. Its in your hands now.
Closing: I am sorry, Ive just been over a lot of shit recently. I honestly could not hate my life more right now, bare with me kid.
oh yeah, and Ive been sick the entire weekend so far, that might have something to do with it. shitty. |
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[Oct. 4th, 2008|01:43 pm] |
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h20 was more amazing than I anticipated. Even though it rained most of the time, which I mostly stayed out of, the times with good friends and all of the jokes and drunken obnoxiousness - not to mention being surrounded by THOUSANDS of vw's in an area about twice the size of the entire vb oceanfront. what did suck, was Russ's girlfriend flipped out on him the night before about me driving one of HIS other cars up there... pretty fucking douchey. She threatened to leave him and other bullshit. I hate seeing friends get treated like that, he is a pretty cool dude. so I rode up there with him, but I did get a lot of film/photos. oh and I did get to surf saturday morning, that was pretty awesome, Im glad I took my board and shit up there, even though I rode back with someone else and I had to put my board in koaltons truck, which I still need to go pick up from him. I need to hurry up and get that film finished, its turning out quite nicely. Oh yeah, then my camera died early saturday night and I didnt bring my battery charger with me, so I got no pics/video of rest of the weekend. lame. funny it almost took me a whole week to write in here about this. Guess I was still coming down from the natural high, hahah. Im lame, I know.
anywayyy. I think writing in here about some things really does try to fuck it up for you. I sent you a text that Im sure you read, but I really am sorry to hear about paul. I could tell you did really like him, obviously. but I did kinda call this one out... but dont feel bad, Im in the same boat, kinda. Me and that janay girl have STILL yet to hang out. we made plans yet again like last monday? Yeah that fell through. she texted me all day until around 5pm then she just stopped and then randomly texted me around midnight. I didnt even ask her what happened or anything, I was just like fuck it, if shes not going to take whatever it is we are doing seriously, either am I. Honestly, this must be a game to her. She texts/calls me non-stop saying all types of shit, yet she literally has no interest in meeting/hanging out. like last monday I was like lets hangout, Ill buy you dinner or something, and shes like "no, just come over to my house and hang out & lets watch movies" (we know what that means) - Im thinkin yeah right, no chance in hell this is happening. And it didnt, no big surprise there. Even still, almost a whole week later, non-stop talk like we are dating and have been for awhile, yet absolutely no effort to hangout. whatever, Ill just continue to play this game, and whenever her motive shows itself, Ill recognize it and be able to step away from the bullshit quite easily.
Why have I been attracting wack girls lately?
If anything, maybe the curse will strike again. Thats prolly why this has been going on, because I havent written in here about it in awhile... Though this time it might be more like a blessing.
I hope you continue to write in your journal dbag. Id miss you... |
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[Sep. 25th, 2008|04:56 pm] |
well
I leave for h20 tom at 10:30ish am. Fucking stoked. Lots of good times with lots of good people.
tried to cancel my room so I could shack up with some of the cool kids, no sir, not without losing 150$. fuck that. looks like Ill be in my room all by my lonesome. Cant say I care though, haha.
still have to pack, stack my paper so I can buy whatever I want, and then go pick up the car Im driving from Russ. Cant fucking wait. Honestly. Sucks its going to rain, but oh well, the show must go on! And Im stoked on possibly being able to surf in ocean city and I might make the 20min drive to delaware and see whats up with the surf there as well.
overall, one of the best weekends of my life is about to start. I honestly wish youd be there with me dbag, but noooooooooooooooo you just HAD to go out and get a boyfriend. what dbaggery.
I kid. have fun this weekend b! stay safe as always... |
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[Sep. 24th, 2008|08:15 am] |
the WACK chick sent me a msg on myspace late monday night, wondering why I deleted her and such.
turns out she was in the hospital with her friend all day/night saturday. so she says. Doesnt really explain why she didnt try to tell me anything until late monday night. but she apologized profusely, so I guess we will see what happens now... |
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[Sep. 22nd, 2008|03:16 pm] |
did the livejournal curse strike again? or was this girl just wack to begin with? Id go with the latter.
Im actually glad she stood me up, I ended up not wasting any money on something pointless. Just even more money I get to spend this weekend!
On a postive note, I have nearly every single mechanical part for the coupe. Im missing a few small items, but thats because Im holdin out until I can buy the high quality stuff instead of cheap crap at a local parts store. Anyway, the car will be done soon AND Ill be able to move back out to the house in south norfolk...
I can not wait to distance myself from this area, even tho its still in chesapeake, it might as well be 500 miles away.
Quick funny story about saturday night, instead of taking "miss I really do suck at life and I am every sense of the word high maintenance" out on a date I decided to meet up with almost every single "cool person" in hickory to go on a booze cruise at waterside on the "American Rover" for Lindsay Atkinson's birthday. Wellll we didnt even make it off the dock before we were all kicked off. Evidently someone pissed in the sink and threw up in the guys bathroom. The boat didnt take on passengers until 10:00 - we were kicked off well before 11. I even bullshitted on getting a drink, to my demise as I was going down below to the bar, the captain comes on the loud speaker and kicks everyone off.
wow. just wow.
Then, no one wanted to stay in norfolk and drink, no one I wanted to chill with anyway, so I ended up driving around to drop boogades off somewhere, then came right back home.
Oh yeah, I was going to get some drinks with amy last night, but even then I didnt feel up to it. Trying to save money yet again.
awesome weekend!
Well the Redskins did win...
Closing Notes:
I cant wait to move back out. Into my huuuuggggggeeee room.
I need to get out and paint some more.
I need to finish the coupe so said moving out can commence, Im hoping to be in the house by december 1st.
Obviously, I am fuckin S T O K E D! on this weekend. Even though Ill be lonely in my hotel room. Which isnt necessarily a bad thing, really. |
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[Sep. 12th, 2008|04:51 pm] |
I am definitely ready to consume some tasty alcoholic beverages.
Man. Against my better judgement towards the livejournal curse, last week this random girl messaged me on myspace telling me I have awesome taste in volkswagens. I was like thanks and all of that, turns out she is an enthusiast too and knows quite a bit about vws/audis - but I guess it helps that she works at a Audi dealership. this girl is pretty hot, wayyy out of my league (but then again, so are you) but she seems to be into me so I guess we will see what happens, Im not expecting a damn thing to happen haha...
time to get drunk...
PS: Be safe over the weekend dbag... |
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[Sep. 10th, 2008|07:20 am] |
today I have to take my sister to work.
waking up a hour early, REALLY sucks.
today might not be that bad though... |
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| Man. These weekends just arent long enough/ |
[Sep. 7th, 2008|09:11 pm] |
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Except I have even had a 4 day break from work, wow!
lets see if I still have a job tomorrow.
Lets start the recap.
Friday, didnt do a damn thing, pretty sick. Uneventful.
Saturday, I woke up around noonish, to hanna pouring down, pretty sweet stuff, I love hurricanes/Tropical Storms. They are much more awesome then regular thunderstorms - why, I dont know? Maybe because I know what they bring with them? Soo anyway, there were some rumors floating around that right after hanna leaves the area there will be strong and gusty West winds. What does this mean you ask? Off shore winds. Off shore winds = Clean surf. So pretty much after hanna was done here in va - the chest- shoulder high waves cleaned up pretty nicely. HOWEVER - we had bigger plans, at around 5:30 Hayden, Kyle and I (just like the good ol' days) headed down to the outerbanks to catch the surf down there earlyyy sunday (rumored to be 10-12ft and CLEAN!) So we rushed down there and got there in time to surf so we did that up, me and hayden stayed out there until it was pitch black and we could no longer see shit. We got plenty of fun rides last night, I pulled into a couple of nice barrels - nothing too special though. Soo after that we meet up with a few people who were already down there and discussed where we were gonna stay, since there was a lot of people with us, and none of our local friends wouldnt be able to let us all stay, so we got a hotel room, which in the beginning was going to house about 10 people. Im glad that didnt happen, it ended up being 5 of us in there, not too bad. I had a spot in a bed, but I gave it up to winy boy hayden who was lying on a PILE of blankets on the tile floor. It ended up not being too bad though. Pretty awesome night, all of the jokes and shit talking, and especially the prank calls we made were fuckin hilarious. So highschool. hahaha. needless to say we didnt sleep until about 2am, and we set the alarm for 6am.... 4ish hours of sleep on a tile floor kinda sucks, I do not recommend it.
Sundayyy... The day of rest - YEAH RIGHT!
After getting up we check the spot out in front of our hotel/motel/bungalow thing, it was shit. So we make the drive down to Rodanthe... It was fucking going off as predicted 10-12ft and CLEAN!... However, it was breaking about a good quarter of a mile out, through some pretty treacherous shorebreak/quarter mile of white-water - and NO ONE was going out. I mean everywhere we stopped to check in rodanthe/pea island there was plenty of people checking it out/on the beach, but it was just insane no one was trying to paddle out in that. So we headed back up into town and checked a couple spots. We settled on south nags-head. It was about 6-8ft there still very clean, and not breaking as far out. So we suit up and purposely walked a mile down the beach because we all knew the current was going to be terrible. Once we all actually got out into the line-up we noticed that we were actually in front of where we parked at. Me, Hayden, and Dave decide to not even fight the current and to let it take us down the beach, well have plenty of good waves, then noticed we were in front of the water tower, a good 3-4 miles from where we parked. Fuck. So we get out and start the process of walking down the beach-road to my car - hitch hiking along the way. Luckily some dude from maryland picked us up and takes us to my car, just in time might I add, as we were being eaten up by deer flies and horse flies. Sooooo then we continue driving north on the island to find somewhere else to surf, since the current spot got a little weird and started sucking. We ended up driving back to kitty hawk and surfing at the same spot we did saturday night. I wasnt even going to paddle out, but I did. And Im glad I did. I had the time of my life! The BIGGEST barrels I have ever been in, needless to say the best waves of my life! I forgot my fuckin camera though, which kinda pissed me off. I am feelin it now though. Kinda burnt face/arms and worn the fuck out.
worth it? definitely.
got home around 4ish - took a shower, poked around on the computer for a bit, then watched a movie whilst taking a nap, and now Im here. writing this short story. thanks for reading <3 |
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[Sep. 5th, 2008|02:31 pm] |
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I really do think there is a live journal curse.
enough said.
moving forward amicably
I do not feel good.
However:
DEAR HANNA, IKE, and JOSEPHINE...
I LOOK FORWARD TO MEETING YOU!
PLEASE BRING MORE FRIENDS!
Sincerly,
brennen k.
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| I love the weekends. |
[Aug. 31st, 2008|10:52 pm] |
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Well not too much went down this weekend... Friday I went out to norfolk with a couple people to some house parties, at one particular party I was mere seconds away from asking a undercover narcotics agent if he had a bowl so we could get high, but last second I noticed his badge hangin around his neck, awesome! what a dumbass, good thing I kept my mouth shut.
Saturday was where the weekend really got awesome, me and Amy had our "official second date" and we both had a blast - as we both expected, even though we were both hungover, haha! We talk/text everyday but on the date we pretty much established that we'd like to see more of each other and see where this goes. Im pretty stoked. We share a lot of the same interests, and have similar goals in life. Pretty much shes more awesome than words - I would be dumb to not try to date this girl. Point blank. Whatever, Im takin it day by day...
Today I tried to get some things done with my car, but you gotta love previous owners and their abilities to fuck up things for other people down the road. Im talkin about stripped-out bolts that I have no clue how to get off. lame. Now its lookin more than ever it wont be done by the show, but whatever.
Tomorrow should yield some surf so I should be on that. Other than that Ill be enjoying labor day and trying to figure out what Im going to do about these bolts... Hopefully Ill see her at some point as well. |
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